My family moved from China to North Carolina when I was six years old. My parents and I didn't know Mandarin or English when we first moved here. They both initially worked at a Chinese restaurant while I started first grade. In elementary school, a van would come to pick me up for Sunday school from the apartments we were living at. I remember there were lots of African Americans at this church. The reason they left a deep impression on me wasn't because they looked the most different from Asian. It was because I was moved by both their kindness during our interactions as well as by their joy and thankfulness when singing at worship. With that congregation, I experienced prayer for the first time. I was amazed that as a child I could speak to God and actually trust and feel that our Father was listening.
In fourth grade, my family moved to a mountain town. Up there, I also attended several churches. What helped my faith to grow the most was vacation bible school. During this time, we learned so many songs, but there was one song that I have never forgotten till this day, because I always return back to it, especially when I am lost or afraid. It is from Proverbs 3:5-6. And this is how it goes: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart Lean not on your own understanding In all your ways acknowledge him And he will make your paths straight."
There are many instances in my life where God has tested and deepened my faith by showing me He stays true to His Word. One example, where the gospel has really changed who I am is through my relationship with my dad.
在我的生命中, 有很多次神考验和增加我的信心, 因为他让我看到他是信实的神。福音真正改变我的一个例子是我跟我爸爸的关系。
Ever since elementary school, my dad would push me into helping him as a translator. I was very scared of being a mediator between adults. Imagine as a ten year old, helping a policeman give your father a speeding ticket.
As I grew older, there was a growing unwillingness to help out, because I felt extremely unprepared for mediating business discussions and was not interested in opening a restaurant. Although I helped translate many times, there wasn't any progress, so my dad would think that overall I hadn't helped at all. Thus, whenever my dad asked me to translate again, I would get so upset and frustrated that I would scream at him。I knew that was wrong, but I couldn't control it. My initial prays about this were to justify myself to God. Saying things like, "I'm trying to help, but why can't dad see it?"
It took me a long time to truly turn to God. When I finally did, I asked Him to take away my anger and to help me understand my dad. It worked.
很久之后我才真正地"仰赖耶和华."我求神把我的憤怒拿走, 並帮助我了解我的爸爸. 那真的有用.
I began understanding my dad's dreams and stepping forward with confidence to help in more difficult situations. When my dad opened a sushi bar, we received a threatening letter. I was worried and unsure of how best to handle the situation, but with prayer and Proverbs 3:5-6 in mind, God showed me that he was there for my family and had already introduced me to two friends who could help me work through the difficulty.
Although I have not been at CCMC long, my family has been wonderfully blessed by the friendships of many aunties and uncles at this church. Ever since we moved to America, they have always reached out to my mom and have indirectly taught me a lot about the Gospel and what it means to live a life for God. So, I stand here to give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; And His love really does endure forever.